Emotional fool

Don’t know what I am feeling or why it is like what I am feeling. Seems like it is. Today I think I am the most confused guy in this world. It seems it is end of life. Everything is stopped. Whatever I wanted I failed to get it and whatever I had I lost all’s am feeling at zero degree absolute. It seems old times were better when I was the only king.i used to rule. Everyone knew me. But now things changed and situation too.i want to return back to that time. I wanted to become famous but it seems that my bad time has just started now. The ship on which I was selling has wreaked and I am left alone in middle of the sea.

As college day is nearing my frustration is increasing. There are very rare times and occasions when I am not a part of a function or event and this really sucks.Even people now question about my stage ethics.the idiots who don’t have courage to stand at that place for a minute. My heart fills with envy and disgrace when my hostel mates talk about their college day dance preparation. They all are my friends but still I don’t know why I have started envying them. But still I think about my poor luck that prevented me from taking part in college day. I want to tell them that how much I envy them but I will not do this. Because it is not their fault. It is just my fault....what an emotional fool I am.

I am unable to trust anyone.nowdays I have started watching too much porn.i don’t like to talk too much.i hate croud and noise it seems everyone ready to make fun of mine am part of no group no one is my friend I am just alone.i want to cry but still I can’t coz I am not used to it

In short I am gone mad,frustrated,desprate

from varun's blog

I hope you will not mind but I found these shers quite funny :P



here it goes

1 jab soch raha tha yunhi,
ki einstien ko peeche chodunga,
to khayal aya,
ki ek bechare seb (apple) ko kab tak ragdunga.

200 saal ho gaye seb ko,
arey ab to bari aane to bel patthar ki....
kisi na kisi ka sar to phodunga........






1) ek aarzoo thi tere sang ghar basane ki,
ek aarzoo thi tujh par jaan lutane ki.

tumhare liye accha hai ki khuda meri sunta hi nai,
kyunki ek aarzoo haio aaj tujhe jinda jalane ki[:p]





2) tasveer se teri mohhabat jitni kari,
utni agar khuda se karta,
to deedar to vo bi deta.....

teri jagah agar kutte ko pyaar karta....
to vafadari to vo bi karta[:p]



1) ek khata ki itti badi saja jayaaz nai,
dil dukha tha agar aapka,
to badle mein dil jalana, zayaj nai....





2) fir vo pagalpan ke lamhe yaad karta hun,
fir teri muskurahat yaad karta hun,
chaha tha tujhe kabhi ,
is bevkoofi ke liye khud ko tujhse jyada galiya deta hun....




3) gujre lamho par lamhe muskurate hai,
bichde suro se dil ke taar jud jaate hai,
mohhabat to sab karte hai,
par prabhu, beda par kisi kisi ka lagate hai.........


4) humare liye ruthna unka nazayaj tha,
manana humara nakamyab tha,
unke liye aansu humare nazayaj the,
isliye pouchna kaam unka na tha.....




5) aaankho pe teri aaj bi marta hun,
na jaane kyu ab bi tujhse hi pyaar karta hun,
ladkiya to bahut hai...
na jaane kyu fir bi tera hi intezaar karta hun....





maidan mein khade the seena tan ke hum,
samne fauj bi hoti to na jhukte hum,

magar jab samna hua to aye vo.....
akkar is kadar muskuraye vo......
dil pe humare aisa ghav hua,
bechara, seedha premgati ko prapt hua[:(]


link to varun's blog
http://mikshaunt.blogspot.com/