Emotional fool

Don’t know what I am feeling or why it is like what I am feeling. Seems like it is. Today I think I am the most confused guy in this world. It seems it is end of life. Everything is stopped. Whatever I wanted I failed to get it and whatever I had I lost all’s am feeling at zero degree absolute. It seems old times were better when I was the only king.i used to rule. Everyone knew me. But now things changed and situation too.i want to return back to that time. I wanted to become famous but it seems that my bad time has just started now. The ship on which I was selling has wreaked and I am left alone in middle of the sea.

As college day is nearing my frustration is increasing. There are very rare times and occasions when I am not a part of a function or event and this really sucks.Even people now question about my stage ethics.the idiots who don’t have courage to stand at that place for a minute. My heart fills with envy and disgrace when my hostel mates talk about their college day dance preparation. They all are my friends but still I don’t know why I have started envying them. But still I think about my poor luck that prevented me from taking part in college day. I want to tell them that how much I envy them but I will not do this. Because it is not their fault. It is just my fault....what an emotional fool I am.

I am unable to trust anyone.nowdays I have started watching too much porn.i don’t like to talk too much.i hate croud and noise it seems everyone ready to make fun of mine am part of no group no one is my friend I am just alone.i want to cry but still I can’t coz I am not used to it

In short I am gone mad,frustrated,desprate